Dieing friendships

Friendship is one of the main things that makes life worthwhile. When you have a friend to confide in, 
suffering seems more bearable, and pleasures are more intense. Everything is better when you have a friend to share it with. When a friendship breaks, whether or not it is for the best, there is a degree of pain and mourning that an individual goes through. There were things that you may have done only with that person and you feel a void in your life. Take some time to let yourself mourn before moving on to other relationships.

I watch you walk away from me

And the tears start to fall

I ask myself a million times

How did we lose it all???

For the first time I had no words

that to you I could say

I cling to old memories

And I watch you walk away

I just don't want to let you go

But inside I know I must

My heart's whimpering with pain

But it's my mind I trust

There's confusion around me

There's numbness in my heart

But looking at you walk away

My world just fell apart

If only I could handle it

And bear to just say

I'd use my breath and say the words

Don't Walk Away!!!

I remember the time not long ago

When we laughed and shared it all

We were the very best of friends

Or at least that’s what I thought.

I often wonder why friendships end

What happens to sever that tie

How can someone once so close

Just wave you off with a good bye

I must have been lacking

I must have been wrong

I wasn’t the friend to you

That you were to me all along.

I thought I was loyal

I know I was true

But something went wrong

Now there’s nothing to do

A friendship lost

Is a very sad thing

The angels weep instead of sing.

The relationship between two friends

Is more than you can hold in your hands

It feels like it could never break

Or someone could ever take

Then suddenly like the break of dawn

Someone else comes along

Then the relationship bends so much that it breaks apart

And soon it breaks a heart.

Are you really gone?

As my days draw out I find myself thinking about you

I miss you dearly and wish you were by my side, too

You are a real friend and I hate not having you here

Never being able to see you or talk to you would be my greatest fear

We have become close and I think of you as kin

Kirsten I miss you, Will we be able to laugh again?

We had so much fun together; thinking of it makes me sad

Do you think I will ever get a chance to prove myself to your mom and dad?

Your parents think I'm a bad person and I wish that wasn't true

I wish they understood how much I really do care for you!

I love you like a sister and I will always care

I wish things were different not being able to talk to you doesn't seem fair

I miss our silly jokes; I miss our bond of trust

I hate not being able to talk to you and I don't want to have to adjust

I wish I had the opportunity to sit with your mom and make her see

I am not a bad person and I am not the person they have made me out to be

I wish she only knew how hard it is for me

To sit here everyday and think about you and me

You are a great person and I have so much respect for you

I wish we could still laugh and joke like we used to be able to

I hope we will always be friends! I will always be here for you

I just want to know, will you be there for me too?

"Et tu Brute, then fall Caesar". Perhaps the most famous words in English literature speak of a betrayal of a friend. Julius Caesar is saying that if even his close friend Brutus is stabbing him, then he has no hope. Our friends are the ones that we expect will stand by us through thick and thin. When are going through hard times, we ask that they be "like a bridge over troubled waters". If we cannot count on our friends to pull us through, then who can we count on?

The blood was shed 

It will never be the same

Feel the intruding lead 

That hangs my head in pain

The drainage not on my hands 

But flows down my back

It was only in the sands 

Where you planned your attack

Executed without flaws

With no issue at hand 

You dug deep with your claws 

Into a faceless land 

Your face full of lies 

When you greet me at that place

I see through your disguise 

And reject your embrace 

The wound you try to heal 

Is now a gaping maw

Your words can never conceal 

The true colors I saw

We said it was forever - said we'd never part,

I knew it was a line, but I still gave both of you my heart.

Said you would stay, promised you could,

You chose to walk away, I knew you would.

You’re not there anymore, my dearest friends,

I hate to say this, but it is our end.

By day you’re one person, by night another,

Neither of them have anything to do with each other.

I sit here and cry for you - not for me,

What you've become, I wish you could see.

In your life you make friends that you're sure are true,

Nothing else matters, except what's between them and you.

You don't know if anyone has ever before felt this way,

For them you took breaths, you wanted to be alive everyday.

It hurts to loose a friend, it gives you the saddest frown,

And when a second one bails, it's like getting kicked while 

you're down.

And it hurts to be accused of something you didn't do,

You guys should know better than anyone, that I would never even think to.

You planted a knife in my back,

You were my life, but now, my memories of you are completely black.

I am afraid to love another, but I know I shouldn't be,

Because the people in my life, are perfect for me.

There is this game I play,

Where I close my eyes and fade away.

I can't believe it's true,

but in this place, I can't even remember that I loved you.

You can't fix something that's already done.

These so called friends who let me down

Who made me feel as though I would drown?

My heart was broken, like a death to grieve,

These friends of mine, set out to deceive.

We had been friends for many years,

With much laughter, fun and tears,

We’d had good times, but that was past, 

Like many things they did not last.

They did not invite me,

The hurt they caused,

They did not ring or call, 

I think that just about say’s it all.

In my awful dark despair,

I really thought they would care,

A note, a card, or even some flowers,

But they were too mean to even use these powers.

They left me crying and so upset,

How could they, and yet,

“I’m alright” they probably said,

We don’t care, we’ll go ahead,

They carried on it did not matter,

They all went out for chatter,

No doubt to bitch, to stir and moan,

But they had left me, all alone.

When days were darkest, and self esteem so low,

Calls to Samaritans said it all,

They came through with flying colours,

These friends did not, that’s all that matters.

The pain they caused will not go away,

It cuts deep and strong to this day,

To put the phone down on me, screaming abuse,

To lie and try to cover up, Oh God, this is so obtuse.

I did not think I needed to explain,

But my questioning why? Fell in vain,

They tried to say I was over reacting,

They were going to invite me, but did not exactly!

How can people be so mean?

When I was always there so keen,

They did not deserve me as a friend,

I finally realized this in the end.

No peace in their lives will they ever find,

They let a friend down badly, not kind!

They bitched and moaned about each other,

This I will not miss, and don’t want the bother.

I am better, kinder, they will ever be,

Love, respect, they no longer have for me,

To me they are forever gone,

And in my life they no longer belong.

A dignified silence is all that remains,

I’m free now from all the pain,

I realize now they were not real friends,

But used me for their own selfish ends.

I really think they will, miss me,

But I’ve left them alone, and let it be,

I miss them not; it turns out in the end,

Be content with yourself, why defend?

Stand tall, be proud, have peace within,

It is only then you can begin 

To be content with the way you are,

Have faith in yourself your a shining star,

Do not let friends put you down,

Destroy your love; stamp it into the ground,

Do not put up with their moans and groans,

Settle this knowledge into your bones.

I am happy now and glad of heart,

That these friends and I are apart,

I’ve moved on now and left them behind, 

To each other they will never be kind.

To the rest of my life new friends have come,

Ones that you can really depend and rely on,

So take heed from my awful quest,

And remember, NEW friends really can be BEST.

What are best friends? 

Are they always there for you?

Do they keep secrets?

Do they hide from you? 

Do they stay by your side?

Or do they trash you to your enemies?

Do they comfort you in tough times?

Or do they make fun of you like you have fleas?

Do they pretend they care?

Do they stab you in the back?

Do they actually care?

Or do they use you?

I don't know what a best friend is

Because I thought I had one

But it turns out, 

She makes me feel like a fool.

I defended her in school

When everyone else made fun

I hung out with her

Even if it meant not being cool.

After everything I do

She ends up taking advantage of me

Now she barely confides in me

Or even consider me a best friend.

She has kicked me out of her life

Now I'm just another person that goes to school with her.

She is liked at school now,

With friends galore,

But she has kicked out the one 

Who loved her for her.

So tell me,

Is this what "best friends" do?

Because if it is 

I would rather not have one,

I wouldn't want to hurt you.

Do you still remember?

When it was just you and me

We trusted each other with anything

The best that friends could be

The bad times came 

But we went through them strong

You were always there to help me

And show me right from wrong

Not just a best friend

But more like a sister, too

I never really understood

How could I be blessed with you?

And then I started drinking

I didn't treat you like I should

I thought I couldn't stop it

But you showed me I really could

I thought all the bad was over

That's when you fell for Chris

I warned you, told you it wasn't right

You said you just wanted to kiss

You know I wanted you to be happy

But Jenny, he was twenty two

Our youth worker - supposed to support us

He didn't deserve someone like you

Your relationship turned sexual

And I promised I wouldn't tell

I only wanted to be a good friend

I didn't know it'd make me unwell

Depression then took over me

As I watched him take over you

You treated me so badly then

But what could I really do?

He was seven years older

I hate him for taking you

I told you that I cared so much

And really, that was true

You couldn't see past his lies

And I was the only one who knew

Even though you don't speak to me now

Please know that I'll always love you

We said we would be friends till the end

You said you would always be my friend

You stabbed be in the back

now what we had we can't get back

I see you everyday 

but I still feel the need to pray

I miss you more and more

but it can never be like before

I will love you forever

But you will never

I guess you're not the same any more

but what happened to before

Did you ever really care

Did you ever really dare

you thought it was a game

so with you lays the blame

I wish that I could take it all away but it’s done.

We were the best of friends, everything we did was fun.

Now it's not the same since you became cool with the in-crowd.

Now you’re ashamed of me, you want me to be like you but I'm too proud.

I wish that you weren't so stuck-up and would come back to reality.

You wanted to be so popular that you dissed your own nationality.

Now that you got your wish do you still think you made the right choice?

Remember that we once were friends, you always told me that I had a voice.

But what about now you don't even speak up, you're too scared.

They might find out who you are and boot you from your position and not care.

With all that said and done our friendship is left in the past.

But who will you have to come back to when being popular doesn't just doesn't last.

You torn my heart open

And now I shiver

In the cold night

Where you left me

Dying in pain

You betrayed me

Now I don't trust

Because you lied

And bitched

So I don't need you no more

Here I am lying on my bed

Writing this about you

If you hadn't of betrayed

I would be laughing

But you did betray

And now I feel as if I am in a black hole

Of nothingness

You were a fake friend

Pretending to know

Pretending to have fun

I trusted you

I told you secrets I hadn't told anyone else

You kept those secrets

Until now when you tell everyone

Not just will I never trust you again

I will never call you a friend 

Because you were a best friend

I'm backing out of your life

And pushing you out of mine

I will lock you out of my life

And I will make sure you never ruin it again

I won't help you

I won't talk to you

I won't give you payback

Because I try to forget you

And those lies you told

I will never forgive you

I don't know if I could ever forgive you for leaving me so cold and sad.